Muddle
Work Faith Dreams Food Flowers Trust
Time Friends Family Reality Self esteem
Cabin Demand Regret Desire Lust Lack of sleep
Time Friends Family Reality Self esteem
Cabin Demand Regret Desire Lust Lack of sleep
Yeah..?
If it's meant to be
Don't think about it
Let love run free
Cause you're on your way
Don't think about it
Let love run free
Cause you're on your way
Fuck it then...
Well........Don´t ever - e v e r put your hope in to something or someone, for that matter.....
You´ll end up dissapionted...
Frustrated, dissapointed, sad....all at the same time.
All my strength is gone
You´ll end up dissapionted...
Frustrated, dissapointed, sad....all at the same time.
All my strength is gone
Skum..
...i huvudet idag...eller ja, i hela kroppen med för den delen.
Helg igen snart - inga planer = lätt panik! Hatar det!
Läkaren idag, spänd som fan inför det.....Känner att jag har massor att skriva, men det kommer
inte ut, frustrerande!
Skriver mer senare...
Helg igen snart - inga planer = lätt panik! Hatar det!
Läkaren idag, spänd som fan inför det.....Känner att jag har massor att skriva, men det kommer
inte ut, frustrerande!
Skriver mer senare...
Awake...?
*yawn* Just opened my eyes.....
Feels like I’ve been run over by a steamroller......(kind of flat) *smile*
I have today off......But half the day have already past.....Well, well..............
Hanna is coming home tonight...haven’t seen her in a week, I guess we’d just cuddle up in the couch, have something good to eat and just relax.
I’m quite eager to see the Doc tomorrow......Maybe because I feel I put my hope in his hands...??
And the reason that he can be a part of my progress......feeling ever better than I already am, however that is yet to be seen :)
Feels like I’ve been run over by a steamroller......(kind of flat) *smile*
I have today off......But half the day have already past.....Well, well..............
Hanna is coming home tonight...haven’t seen her in a week, I guess we’d just cuddle up in the couch, have something good to eat and just relax.
I’m quite eager to see the Doc tomorrow......Maybe because I feel I put my hope in his hands...??
And the reason that he can be a part of my progress......feeling ever better than I already am, however that is yet to be seen :)
A dedication to...
...my true friends!
Thank you, Helen, Lise, Sara, Trude, Ina, Tommy & G for giving me so much joy & support!
Love you all!
Thank you, Helen, Lise, Sara, Trude, Ina, Tommy & G for giving me so much joy & support!
Love you all!
Great
Finally!! :)
Ok........I guess working nights is a good thing for me..?
Since I feel better & better when coming home ;) On my way home, with a borrowed bike,(my thighs getting a good workout) the wind playing in my hair, music in my ears.....I felt like I was the Queen of the world - MY world!
Because that’s how it is....I just have to make myself sure about it - once and for all!
I have even more going on in my head at the moment....have to call H, to discuss things, get another opinion about it. I have to make some changes - quite big ones, for my own sake, feels a bit scary, but I know that in the long run it’s for my best!
I kind of like the person I se in me!
Just Another 13,5hrs to go!! *Jihaa*
Weird & wonderful
Just got home from work.......
A most delightful experience ......
My co-worker was a girl that seemed familiar in a way.....A tiny little thing she was :)
But yeiks - what an authority!!
It showed that we´d went to adult education together, several years ago.
We talked about all & nothing, when she suddenly says: - J, you can be yourself with me, it´s Ok!
And I really felt it - physically! It was like my whole body just exhaled!!
I felt free in a way , relaxed - not scared at all, or insecure.....
I kind of like when people just se right through me....Then I don´t have to explain things (or myself)
Well... I have to get some sleep - just 27 hrs to go ;)
A most delightful experience ......
My co-worker was a girl that seemed familiar in a way.....A tiny little thing she was :)
But yeiks - what an authority!!
It showed that we´d went to adult education together, several years ago.
We talked about all & nothing, when she suddenly says: - J, you can be yourself with me, it´s Ok!
And I really felt it - physically! It was like my whole body just exhaled!!
I felt free in a way , relaxed - not scared at all, or insecure.....
I kind of like when people just se right through me....Then I don´t have to explain things (or myself)
Well... I have to get some sleep - just 27 hrs to go ;)
Frustrated
Another day´s here......Still having a major cold, and it sucks, since I´ll be working nearly 40 hrs this weekend. I´m a star when it comes to planing my spell of work. *damnit*
But the weather is still nice....That´s a good thing!
On tuesday I´m going to se the Doc. Finally.....Maybe he´ll give me some fun pills to nibble on!??
Well......I´ll just have to wait and see.
Still a lot going on inside my head.........And I don´t know what to do. Or what I CAN do.
Probably nothing - nothing at all.
Have to take care of myself - and it´s going to take some time......A whole lot of time.
But what else do I´ve got? If I´m lucky...
But the weather is still nice....That´s a good thing!
On tuesday I´m going to se the Doc. Finally.....Maybe he´ll give me some fun pills to nibble on!??
Well......I´ll just have to wait and see.
Still a lot going on inside my head.........And I don´t know what to do. Or what I CAN do.
Probably nothing - nothing at all.
Have to take care of myself - and it´s going to take some time......A whole lot of time.
But what else do I´ve got? If I´m lucky...
Men Ok då...
Jag gör väl ett försök, så får vi se hur det funkar.....
Har en tendens att lacka ur, när saker & ting bara ska krångla. Speciellt nu, när jag inte är som jag ska.....
Men det ska bli en rätsida på det med....är det tänkt. Skulle behöva lite hjälp bara, en knuff i rätt riktning....eller om jag ska vara brutalt ärlig, så behöver jag en riktigt hård spark in my rear end ;) Så är det!
Det är sommar & sol..........man förväntas vara glad & på alerten..............Men vafaan!
Min önskesommar ser ut som en reklamfilm från Pripps blå......I verkligheten sitter jag solo på de karga klipporna o filmen är förihelvete svartvit!
Har en tendens att lacka ur, när saker & ting bara ska krångla. Speciellt nu, när jag inte är som jag ska.....
Men det ska bli en rätsida på det med....är det tänkt. Skulle behöva lite hjälp bara, en knuff i rätt riktning....eller om jag ska vara brutalt ärlig, så behöver jag en riktigt hård spark in my rear end ;) Så är det!
Det är sommar & sol..........man förväntas vara glad & på alerten..............Men vafaan!
Min önskesommar ser ut som en reklamfilm från Pripps blå......I verkligheten sitter jag solo på de karga klipporna o filmen är förihelvete svartvit!
Antingen så....
...är det jag som är rudis, eller så håller burken på att få spunk på riktigt.*gaaahhh*
Faan..
Det var ju inte lätt det här...........Måste klura lite till på hur faan man får till det (valfri tolkning)